Monday, March 8, 2010

I Loved him Endlessly.
Nevertheless, HE wants to be loved.

To overcome HIM is just enormously difficult.
As for him, he knows and understands me.

HE has become someone that was not what HE used to be.
Reasons to that, because of a girl.
And the girl was ME.

I hate to let someone love me especially when they just know me.
HE will not let me go.
HE will wait.

I am much more passionate about him.
Not HIM.

Possibly, i dont like HIS doings.
DRUGS?
It scares the shit out of me.

Once is just enough for me to see that happenings in the past by a guy.
NOW?
Omg.
My heart sank to see.
With my own Eyes.
HE was different.
Very DIFFERENT.

Twice i cried because of HIM.
Because i have to see HIM like that.
Having Hallucinations.
Accusing me.
Threatening me.
Not trusting me.
In Addition, he did not realise what wear when i first came.

Oh well, YES, i am scared to see all those things.
Basically, i dont like it.
Drinking is okay.
DRUGS is just too much.
Go hay-wire.
Its freaks me out.

Totally.
I didnt speak to HIM.
I even go much further than HIM.
Trying to avoid.
YES.
Avoiding HIM.
Cause he reminds me of the guy i used to be.
And, i felt like RUNNING away.

He is now busy with werk & enjoying much more now.
Exams over for him.
Relieved.
He is going to NS soon.
Hopefully, everything works out.

As for HIM.
Im still AFRAID of HIM.
Because of HIS looks that day.
ALL because of that PARTICULAR DAY.
I wished that i hadnt turned up.

5:28:00 PM

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